She smiles like a normal girl. She when to school, a bright and well-behaved student, that's what her teacher said. Maybe she pondered outside the balcony on her 2nd floor classroom, maybe she said, "What would happen tomorrow?" Head faced ground... 'There', could be there.
'In this life, there's nobody to trust', a familiar quote that she heard quite often in movies and TV dramas. Just maybe. Her walk was slowing down, anxious about life, feeling unworthy about herself, useless, without hope, and sinking into the depths of despair. Maybe, just maybe she thought, "It was my fault... I fail this relationship." Then suddenly, all the promises flashed through her mind one by one until the last one that she really couldn't let go: "I'll never leave you, no matter what... I'll always love you." Well, this is just maybe.
The next day, she went to school again. This time she ‘wears’ extra smile on her face. She didn't sleep well these few nights, her energy low, tired, pain on her back and if possible; she don't want to met anyone. But that day, she behaved normal.
Maybe some tried to play jokes on her; maybe they just don't realize that she loss her weight these few days. Her sense of humor was vastly diminished, being replaced by self pity. She posted: [This would be my last Chinese New Year]. Maybe her friends thought, 'Well of course, Chinese New Year is only once per year, what's big deal about it!' She sees narrow road, not much choice, maybe she can see no way out of this intolerable situation - a lost of hope. ~Suicide~ 'is this the devil's call or my heart desire or this is the way I been looking for? I do not know.' Maybe if she posts another one, her friends will give her encouragements to proceed with this life. No! [Go ahead with whatever you want to do. I dare you.]Maybe just maybe, that was the respond. Her last attempt to gain attention is failed. A 'cry for help' had been ignored.
Same school, same time, same classroom and same spot where she stand few days ago, a question that was raised her attention resurfaced on her mind once again, 'What would happen tomorrow?'. Maybe she wants to think about this a little bit more. So maybe she sits precariously on the corridor ledge facing her empty classroom... Decided! Without warning, when everybody least except... decided to take her life away. Yesterday she facing down still considering, but this time her face facing the sky determine to put an end to her misery.
During that brief moment in the mid-air, what happen I do not know, neither of us can. Maybe she regret and wishing to go back to her original position, head faced ground and standing on solid cement instead of faced backwards and suffered fatal head injuries and died. Stupid? Crazy? Unthinkable? Hmmm, that is MAYBE, but is it really stupid, crazy and unthinkable?
I think when friends, the greatest need, a friend who suppose to love and support her as she walk through the dark valley left her alone is the real stupid. As crazy as how she end her life is not as crazy as those who asked her to go ahead with what she want to do is the real crazy. Unthinkable? No, there are a huge numbers of us who think the same way; no way out except end this life.
What could you say?* You could say 'Accept that as you are at the moment, you are not the best person to decide the way out of your problems', 'Find someone you can trust and talk to them about how you are feeling', 'There is an answer', 'I'm going to pray for you', 'Choose life', 'When you feel ready, let begin to crack the problem together.' If you can't do this, please do not ignore them. Find someone who is trained for counseling.
The bottom line is this; let us together treat people as human being who craving for acceptance and love. Demonstrate it, don't just talk about it. Be prayerful, oh if you knew that the Power of God flow mightily when His Children pray! Don't lift you head and die, lift your head and pray! Keep offer hope and encouragement. Above all put your trust in the One who loves you, and gave His Son to die for you and me.
You might be interested to read this,"I alone know the plans I have for you, plans that bring you prosperity and not disaster, plans to bring about the future you hope for. Then you will call to me. You will come and pray to me, and I will answer you. You will seek me, and you will find me because you will seek me with all your heart." (Jeremiah 29:11-13)
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